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orang dah besar

orang dah besar drive sampai IsaMaju bayar yuran sendiri beli baju sendiri beli tudung sendiri makan minum pernah jadi kuli orang masak bergaul dengan stranger naik ktm sendiri request uber bila abah masuk wad dan orang paksa diri orang pergi kelas amik test and buat lab  pujuk diri sendiri . . . .  the list go on and on
jangan hiraukan orang, anak abah dah besar kalau dia jalan sorang, orang ingat dia ada anak or probably mak orang -,- dia ada bodyguard 2, sorang buncit sorang lagi hitam  dia ada diri sendiri untuk sayang2 dan manja dia ada kawan2 yang tahu pujuk dia....
jangan hiraukan orang, anak abah dah besar bila dia pandai beza mana dosa dan pahala dia tahu abah dah tua so dia dipaksa jadi matang serta merta dia tahu dia ada cita cita sejak dia tahu dia ada ibu ayah untuk dibangga bangga
jangan hiraukan orang,  sebab abah sudah 53 my saviour, my king your order is a blessing
,sm1

LGK

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 (photo by one of my friend)
Rindu I promise I will come back ...soon... 💖
,u12

at the end

'...everytime the bridges burned i never learned..' -call it what you want

kak amy cakap
"kau kena play cool, jangan nampak beria tapi dalam masa yang sama kau nakkan dia..
kau selalu macam ni. kau terburu.."

i am selfish if i said i want you for all myself

wahai empunya diri
cukuplah berangan dan mulalah berdoa
kalau Tuhan kata ya, ya. kalau tidak. maka tidak
berhenti mencaturkan hidup.
siapa paling banyak putih
siapa paling banyak hitam
at the end kau still noob tak pandai main catur, sebab tu kau diam masa cikgu tanya siapa nak masuk kelab catur time sekolah dulu.

dan 2017 hampir melabuhkan tirai.
tolonglah...
sayang diri tu dulu dari orang lain
tolonglah....
bantu diri sendiri sebelum bantu orang lain
at the end kau ada kau, kau ada hati, hati kau seluas langit. banyak mana bintang kau tabur dan bulan yang terang. malam akan berakhir, siang akan tiba

'at least i did one thing right...i did one thing right,
my baby fit like a daydream walking with his head dow…

the selfish pretty ignorant dinner

last week my mascara went down
made stripe both my cheeks
sobbing in my own arms
mixed feelings

sitting on the corner in the hall
watching
eating
humming
nodding
smiling

praises
accepting
standing
tapping

suddenly
its all feel suffocating
heart sobbing

i hate the foods
its full of vegies
i hate the crowd
its better with my sisters
i hate the attention
its full of sarcasm

but

i saw you
sitting
smiling
through projector
i wish it was for me
even for a seconds

i still want to be yours


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and they whom turns me into monster
they wonder why i am different from others
i should have known it was a poison instead of syrup

,MelangInn

So random but Hey...

I promised myself after I post this, I will do my Isyak and sleep early.....cuz I can

Hey....
Genap 8 bulan you left us to pursue something better...I mean me. You left me. And start from that day we never missed communication. I love on what we stand right now. Nakal nakal saya, saya akan tunggu awak dan tak putus asa nak usik and curi hati awak *puke* *but insert heart emojis*

My life is a mess. To summarise what happend, the first week of last semester was great! *not being sarcastic or wtvr* genuinely happy* . They celebrate my birthday at Seoul Garden.

But here's the best part. October is a bitch. And November will turn one too....soon
Like last week, I had a called from Mom. She told me my father was admitted to the hospital because of Heart Attack. I cry and I cannot stop myself from being sad and being sad is not cool. Like you be a laughing gas to everyone and you cant make yourself happy.

So many task to do, deadline to catch. I dont know how my senior survived. And if I…

Si lampu jalanku

My Lord

I want him
I want him in my future
I need him to be in my future

I want to be the reason of " in every successful man, there's a woman behind them"
I want to be the reason of those happy tears from him
I want You to be the reason he wake up every morning just to see me

I want to turn grey together with him
I want to eat junk food with him on midnight because of my crazy craving
I want to be in some familiar city with him, having a night walk while holding hands

I want to spend my leisure time with him.
I want him to share everything with me. from football to workplace
I want him to want me as much as I want him :')

I want his love
I want to make him happy
I want him to be happy
I want the happiness together


A girl with black scarf everyday

Wahai empunya diri, sedarlah bahawa sesungguhnya engkau adalah manusia paling bertuah, bersyukur ok.

You have the the nice best girl friend in the entire world
Please, don't forget her
Please don't hate her
Please don't make her sad
Please don't try to forget her

When everyone stood up and leave you
She has been there for you like....7 years...
and keep this friendship forever-last...
One day, when you get married.
You'll be a good friend, your husband will be friend with her husband too
Your children and hers will be friend to each other.
You girls complete and support each other

When no one willing to hear your rambling and cannot stand with your nagging. She was there for you. Her mother knew you more than she knew any of her friends because you are the only friend that she had here. Your mother knew her too because you always tell nice things.
You love her for whole of your heart and you cannot change the fact that she is someone important in your life. Not bec…